Jesus sh**, mom.

Oh my god! I'm a horrible daughter!

I don't deserve you, mommy. I don't deserve you at all.

How the f*** are you not scarred from that?! I mean I know dad was worse, but f***!

I sat there and I laughed. Every time he pinched you. Every time he made you say "ow."

I shouldn't have laughed. I guess I only wanted him to stop hurting me. I wanted him to stop raping me, but honestly that's no excuse! Mom, I know you'll never read this, but honestly, I don't care! I need to let you know that I understand now!

I'm sorry I laughed. I honestly didn't know any better. I thought you were in on the joke, but after the epiphany I just had, I realize you weren't. We were both being abused by him. I just couldn't tell you, and even though it was happening right in front of me, I didn't think he was abusing you. It was a joke; a game... Or at least that's how he made it seem.

I'm sorry, mom. At that point, THAT was my normal. I didn't know any better!

I would be ecstatic if someone told me that I was even half the woman that you are! I could never hold a candle to you and I know it!

I guess what I want to say is this: you can always live with me and if it came down to choosing between you and my wife, I'd choose you every time. No monster, man or woman is ever going to keep me from protecting you to the best of my ability!

I'm not your little girl anymore, mom, but I'll always be your baby. I love you more than life itself.