Sometimes my anxiety gets the better of me and I think awful things. I think that I'm worthless and that I'm just a huge burden to my friends and my family. I've grown up with emotional abuse from my own parents and I can't believe I'm still taking it at 20 years old. They make me feel powerless. I'm just this weak person that's too afraid to stick up for myself, because they've made me believe that I'm not good enough. Never will be. I just want help but I'm afraid that if I ask, people will judge me. I feel like an absolute failure as an adult and I just know people are going to sh** on me for it all. I'm trying my best but it never ever feels good enough.