As I got older I started to understand why girls had so many image problems. They wanted to look like the girls that all the guys liked. They wanted everyone to like them because of what guys have said in the past. And I was one of these girls...
In 3rd grade I wasn't the prettiest girl. In fact, guys would say I was the ugliest... But that didn't stop me from being a happy little girl until the bullying started happening. It was not just name calling but it was also physical. They would find me in the bathroom and hold me down and rub soap in my mouth and all over my face. They would say that I didn't wash it but in fact I would wash my face 3 times a day. It got to the point where I had no one. I had no friends and I was always afraid to tell people. even my parents. When I was 12 I found a way to get the attention that I wanted. I found a way that guys would want me and call me pretty. That's when I found KIK and sent my first nude. I didn't think anything g of it other then it was a way to get people to like me. Then my mom found out and I didn't get any thing that had internet on it til I was a freshmen in high school. I was the biggest loser ever. I hated school. I wanted to kill myself honestly. Until one day I got facebook. I added all the popular guys and even one messaged me. When he asked for nudes I waited a day before I sent him any. The next day I found out it went around school and that's when everyone started likeing me. The next year I started wearing makeup to cover my acne and more people started likeing me. But now that im 17 I realize that if I could I would have never done any of that. It was a big mistake. I am only have the followers that I do because of my body. I only have dated the guys that I have because of my look. Honestly in this world I am alone. And that's how it will always be. No one will ever be true.