I feel terrible. I don't know what I'm doing anymore. I feel empty. And this feeling comes and goes (only like a day or two if something is happening to get my mind off of things). I know that I'm depressed. I have been this way since like 8th grade. I don't know what is happening. Everyone around me is just always complaining about something. I hate myself for trying to make everyone else happy but ignoring myself. I hate myself for the simple fact that I dislike some people at my school. I feel like it's not right to dislike all the "populars". And I hate myself for my low grades. I'm very hard on myself. I had a 2.9 freshman year, 2.9 sophomore year, and so far I have a 3.0 in my junior year. I don't know what I'm doing and I don't know what I want to do with my life, everything I thought I was good at I suck at this year. I have no motivation to do anything and the worse thing about all of this is the fact that I'm hiding. Around others I'm bubbly and happy but alone I'm overthinking and empty. I need help. I don't know what to do and if I tell someone about this I will feel like my problems aren't really problems and they are just mediocre. And my father keeps bugging me about cleaning my room and doing house chores. And my teachers keeps bugging me about my effort. I don't care anymore.