I don't know why I do it. I'm such a sh** friend to the people I care about. . One day we'll be talking for ages, then I won't reply and I'm constantly thinking I'll reply but I never do, I'm always thinking about them but I just don't message them and then it gets too late. Months and months go by... I think I'm just a mess and need help.
I'm starting to feel real insecure. I hate how I look in pictures.. I've learned to hate my body a bit less but now i'm finding all kinds of issues with my face... I never know what to trust... my eyes, the mirror, the camera... I do what I can to make myself feel alright with makeup but the shape... My face is round, it's always been round no matter my weight. It's cute for a kid, but as a new adult the lack of a jawline is depressing. I look like I weigh more than I do in p... read more
Starting to think I might actually kill myself.
My life's not even sh**, I just make it sh**. My Dad's in prison but nothing's new, he's been there for 10 years, it still rules my f***ing life. I'm sick of the nightmares and the anxiety of him being released. I hate it so much. No friends, no family that give a sh**. My sister would care, but I f*** up her life anyway. I just can't do it anymore, it's all too much. Fed up of myself. I'm disgusting, and I bring everyone down ... read more
I dont know why people are afraid of the power of spite. I'm reading articles online and it talks about how spite may lead to the end goal/feeling of being unaccomplished. DJ Khaled made his whole brand off of "they don't want me to succeed" and is very successful at what HE chooses to do with his life. And why? Because of inner strength, etc, and amongst those things, spite! Its a great feeling of one-uping people who just want to see you fail!
Throughout my life, people ha... read more
I really wanna have friends and socialize, but it's just so difficult. My social anxiety is getting worse and I just end up standing there like a stupid idiot. I don't know wether to cry or laugh. Besides, I have severe trust issues because of past experiences. I don't know who to trust anymore in my school and its ridiculous.