I'm a walking contradiction. I have the biggest social anxiety you could imagine and I struggle with everyday tasks, yet I work a job where I'm constantly surrounded by people and talk in front of crowds. Anxiety attacks are common.
I FOUND my scissors! All is well in the world!! I literally use them for everything and they are my only pair. I am also an art student, so I would have been in big trouble. Kind of scared me though because I thought I threw them away, but that never happened. Pretty much made up a scenario in my head that never happened.....
That guy was right. I really do need to be nurtured and valued and taken care of. I know that my family does those things, but not in the way that I NEED. I NEED to feel loved, told that I am special and be treated like a princess. I know that all sounds so selfish, but I honestly have never gotten that from a guy before. At least not in a genuine and caring way. Whenever my dad would do something nice for me it was only to prove a point, to prove he was better then my mother... read more
I have decided that I will get better no matter what. I know that I may have selective hearing, but it is only because of the lack of attention I have. I just have to learn where to put my attention to and the appropriate times to do it. I have to learn to be patient and fully try to understand what that person is saying instead of just waiting for my turn. I really do want to be a great listener and want to be like Kurt Cobain where he just listened to people.
I am pretty sure I have selective hearing or something similar. My mom told me that I always have ignored people even when I was really little. I know that when I was a kid it was a problem, but now it has gotten worse and more frequent. I have been purposely ignoring people now because my roommate was being an a** to me and I honestly got tired of hearing bulls***. So I literally shut myself down. As a result of this my victim blaming got worse, I got more depressed, and my ... read more
Today I wasted my time going to an information session about a job that would then interview me and call me "lackadaisical". I don't know if she wanted to inadvertently insult me or she genuinely did not know what she meant, either way she was late, gave you a piercing stare for no reason and berated you at random. As much as I loved attending that information session, I didn't. Also, I don't know why a sudden gash in my wallet bled me out $150.00 suddenly... Like wow, I coul... read more