OKAY SO I'VE HAD BUDDING FEELINGS FOR MY BEST FRIEND SINCE THE BEGINNING OF THIS YEAR, THING IS I'M A GIRL AND SHE'S A GIRL AND AS FAR AS I KNEW, I WAS STRAIGHT. HOWEVER WE ARE SUPER CLOSE AND HAVE BEEN FOR THE PAST FIVE OR SIX YEARS AND SO I WAS UPFRONT WITH HER AND ASKED HER IF SHE COULD TELL IF THERE WAS SEXUAL TENSION BETWEEN US AND SHE SAID YES. SO AFTER A FEW DESPERATE ATTEMPTS TO MAKE PLANS, NOTHING HAPPENED SO WE LEFT IT ALONE. FAST FORWARD A FEW WEEKS AND SHE ASKS ME IF I WANT TO HAVE A THREESOME WITH HER AND HER BOYFRIEND. NOW I AGREE BUT INSIDE I'M FREAKING OUT. NOW HER BOYFRIEND HAS CONVEYED INTEREST IN ME AND TOLD ME THAT I'M "SOMETHING GOOD TO LOOK AT" AND ALWAYS MAKES FUN OF ME BECAUSE I WALK, ACT AND SEEM LIKE A MODEL, WHICH I DON'T REALLY SEE BUT ANYWAYS, THAT HAPPENED. I HAD A THREESOME WITH THEM. AND SHE GOT JEALOUS BECAUSE HE SEEMED MORE INTO ME THAN HE WAS INTO HER. HE'S TOLD ME HE WANTED TO HAVE SEXUAL RELATIONS WITH ME BEFORE WHEN THEY WEREN'T TOGETHER FOR A WHILE, AND OF COURSE I DIDN'T SAY ANYTHING BACK. BUT NOW THAT THAT'S OVER I'M STUCK CONFUSED AND THOSE TWO GET TO BE TOGETHER AND HAPPY, AND I'M LEFT HERE BEING JEALOUS, CONFUSED, AND OBVIOUSLY CURIOUS. I KISSED MY BEST FRIEND AND DID MANY OTHER THINGS WITH HER. I THINK I'M IN LOVE WITH HER. AND I THINK I HAVE SOME FEELINGS FOR HER BOYFRIEND TOO. I DON'T CARE ABOUT THE BOYFRIEND BUT I WANT TO TELL HER SO BAD. I THINK I'M IN LOVE WITH HER AND I CAN'T TELL HER THAT.