So, finally someone has showed interest in me, but we're both too busy to actually forge any sort of meaningful relationship. I have done this before, but in the past few tries, I've just tried to grow up. I doubt my ability to stay connected with people even more, and I'm wondering if relationships are even worthwhile. I have so many emotional walls that if anyone were to see what was behind them I would be terrified, because my torn, distressed and shattered self image lies... read more
My boyfriend got the heads of fish that were being killed for a local festival tonight, so he can use them to fish. He brought home 30 kilos of dead fish heads. He said "I'll put in in our (ultra small) fridge!" although I said no, because where does the other stuff go?
I left and came back to find my food (considered garbage becuase it's veggies) out on the staircase and 3 huge bags of head fish in the fish. Unfortunately, one of the bags leaked and half of he kitchen pavem... read more
So I know this is just going to get buried under other situations and whatnot but I'm still gonna say it. I'm a high school senior. I'm going to one of the games tonight, but every time I go to one I get this overwhelming feeling of depression and sadness. I see those guys walking with their girls and having amazing times and laying out on blankets watching the game or maybe the stars etc. I've NEVER known what it feels like to have a girl be with me for me. I've never had a ... read more
Major life decision:
This man I have loved for five years, and been good friends with, asked me to move in with him. He lives four states away.
We have had a strange relationship for a year that began in lust, but over the course of the year turned into serious "I love you"s.
He said it to me, I said it to him.
Now, he has been a player with girls in the past, but I am hoping that he wouldn't play his best friend of five years.
The thing is, and I think it's f***ed up, he bas... read more