No one ever wants to talk to me I am the one sending messages and then they respond. No one starts a conversation with me. I spend 8 years practicing a sport to never get anywhere and lose to a first timer and I have never been varsity. Then people pity me which makes me feel worse. I work hard but every time I end up injuring my self lose all the physical progress and become out of shape. I can not gain weight despite eating over 4000 calories a day for a month and it cost to much money to keep it up. I can not seem to do anything and when I do I just get injured again or get sick with something like strep. Does not matter what I do I just end up worse then I started.