I act like I'm confident about my body, but the reality is I'm not. I act like I love my body, but I hate everything about myself. I try to starve myself and I p**** out of it. I hate being such a miserable fatass. I literally can't even go a day without food, because I end up f***ing it all up. Tomorrow, I'm gonna try not to eat much and go from there. I want to get skinny. I'm tired of being fat. I'm tired of feeling out of place from my skinny friends. And most of all, I'm tired of being ugly.