I wish I could save up money past 100 bucks. I soo want to buy xbox360 and sims3. I know, i know, "rip off", "expansion packs are better* blah blah blah I actually like holding a controller in my hands. Feels right at home.
I hate April! I should love it as it's Spring and the flowers are starting to bloom, etc. But so many bad memories and a few good and well it's a sad month for me. Not to mention history wise, a lot of bad/sad things happened as well. :(
I am such a f***ing waste. I am literally good for nothing. No matter what it is, I cannot bring myself to be motivated to do anything. I barely even have emotions anymore. I am just a husk of a person and I should not exist in this world.
Last night I had a strange dream that went like this. Someone with a gun was in the area and I tried to hide. Somehow that person found me and shot me in the head from 5 feet away. The bullet got stuck in the upper left area of my head. I didn't really feel a lot of pain in my dream but I could feel something uncomfortable. Then after the shooter was gone, everyone around me started freaking out. I yelled at several not injured people to help me get to a hospital because the ... read more
Sometimes I just wanna run away from everything...and never come back. I can never live for myself because I'm too busy trying to make other people happy...Everyday I contemplate leaving the world I grew up in behind and start anew. Plus I found out today, you're always alone. even if someone's there temporarily in the end you're alone. Came in this world alone and you'll die alone. People will always care, but eventually they'll stop to worry about themselves. Everyone's sel... read more