I am stressed out as f***. I don't know what the f*** i am doing. I don't know what the f*** i'm doing and if i should keep doing... whatever i am f***ing doing. I am in high school, and i knew it would be hard, but i didn't expect it to be whatever the f*** it is right f***ing now. All through the year, i expected something hard, something where i would realize "sh** i need to get my act together" It never came, ever. then, at the end of the year it happened, all at once. Every class just said "f*** it your on your own" I have a million tests to study for, and a stupid a** presentation the teacher only gave us a week to work on. I realize high school is supposed to be harder, but why does that mean we can't get help from teachers? They are supposed to help us. Yes we need a challenge, but please ease us into it, or at least understand we are teenagers, we are supposed to be stupid motherf***ers who need help because we are lazy as f***. I don't know what to do when you haven't taught me to be more independent with our work b****. Plus, everything just seems to be falling apart. I have a french test the same day i have a SEVEN f***ING HOUR BAND CONCERT, which is the day my English presentation is due, so I'm to busy stressing over everything to get a damn thing done. I give up. I can't get a damn thing done, when i try, things only get worse.

I wrote that an hour before I wrote this part. I just stopped having basically a panic attack. I was shaking, and i couldn't breathe that well. I usually can at least try to calm down. I couldn't get myself to breathe. School shouldn't do this to me, to anyone...