Mylifemychoice says

Last night I was depressed, after finding out that my father wanted the guy that I have had feelings for him since I was teenager in high school in Dubai, to be actually written for my sister as her husband, but not for me. I have wished if only I am not alive in this world, so I wouldn't be a burden in anyone's life, not even in my sister's life, who has a problem with her legs, and she needs attention and love, more than I do. My cousins and family members, and friends in C... read more

  • 2d
Mylifemychoice says

Here is a crazy fantasy story, and I am saying a fantasy because I just wanna have fun creating a rumor.
I lost our baby from tripping and falling off the stairs, I bumped my head and started bleeding, and then I found out that I not only got injured but also lost our baby. I did not tell the father of the baby, because I did not want him to get worried, he is always travelling for business and whenever he comes back home, he gets the chance to always plant a seed insid... read more

  • 3d
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Mylifemychoice says

I am confused now, at first my lover made me believe that his true name is Omar, and many times I have seen him in vivid dreams calling him Omar, and I also know that probably one of his parents are dead, or maybe both, and people will start looking at him feeling sorry and sad for him, because I once had a vivid dream, people were looking at me sad and feeling pity and sorry, and I heard myself that I was talking about both my parents dead, but for all these years, since 201... read more

  • 5d
Mylifemychoice says

The moment I tell myself that my senses that are tingling about him being around is deceiving me again, a guy comes passing by with a small motorcycle, but doesn't he know that there are millions of guys with the name Omar? Well one of them surely is an amazing guy who has curly chestnut hair and he likes to shave them like the guys in the military, and he would not love me from a distance or even keep me away from him, he would ask my hand and treasure me and shower me with ... read more

  • 5d
Mylifemychoice says

Why is it that whenever I do good for others, pray for their protection and defend for the good people, I always am the one injured and not the bad people. It is like the person I pray good things for him, and I pray for his protection, and I call him my Amor, is the one wishing for me to be injured. But I will keep doing good and pray for your protection Omar, maybe then the bruises on my body, would be a sign to you that she is me you are looking for her, and then you have ... read more

  • Oct 10
Mylifemychoice says

shouting out loud, saying how much I am happy to see him in the middle of the night and disturbing others, is the crazy thing about me that he knows, maybe he didn't hear what I said but I bet someone who knows him heard me lol
I still have that craziness in me, but I always feel like keeping it away, but since I felt like doing it, only for him to know that I do truly care, then what the hell! Who cares? I want the people in my home country to know that the lady they o... read more

  • Oct 8
Mylifemychoice says

Let me skip the negative thoughts and speak up my mind, today in the mountains I think I did see the true sunshine to my eyes, he is adorable as usual, I really missed his smile, especially when he notice me looking, and his cheeks showing from behind, still amazing. He was riding a rover, and he passed by, I could not remove my eyes from seeing him driving away, and yet he still thinks I wanna keep him in the friend zone :(
I do really want you idiot guy! I want you! Y... read more

  • Oct 8
Mylifemychoice says

I wish if only they open my chest and read your name inside it Omar, I wish if only I did not fall for those idiot guys and Believed the liars and accepted that you are the one for me, but still your face never parted my vivid dreams, and as much as I used to wonder about who you really are, in the end it was the name I have always wished for, Omar. As much as I hate the other side of your personality, that you created to the public, I still could not erase you from my mind. ... read more

  • Oct 8
Mylifemychoice says

You are still the same and never changed. The world sometimes can be cruel, but also it is small and amazing, if you look at the bright side. Thank you for the kindness in your heart, thank you for the big love you have, thank you for always being near when others were in a rush to leave me behind, and thanks to your amazing friends that I once hated them, because of believing others that they think of me in a bad way. You and your childhood friends and high school friends ma... read more

  • Oct 6
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Mylifemychoice says

I care for you baby more than you can ever imagine, and there is no one in my mind, except you, because I believe in the signs from above, and I prayed for you during my contractions in 2012, and I prayed for you to be protected from harm and only the good people are around you. I tried forgetting you, and erasing you from my mind, but nothing works out, you always find amazing ways, using the other side of you, talking about my dreams and making me see it coming true, and ye... read more

  • Oct 5
Mylifemychoice says

Sometimes looking at his eyes with the colored contact lenses, I see resemblance to my cousin’s husband looks, it’s funny even though I have a strange positive feeling that he is also from Tripoli like my cousin’s husband, but still his natural dark brown eyes are prettier, they are the reason I am alive. I hate his other side, because I enjoy the company of his reality, much better, emotional, simple, down to earth, and lives day by day thanking Allah for everything, e... read more

  • Oct 4
  Mylifemychoice says

Seeing his childhood fat belly best friend today wearing blue, inside the car beside the driver seat, made my day, just like seeing him few days before wearing the same color blue also, while he was walking and talking to his other friend, because I can feel it's a sign that he cares about me, and that he wants me in his life. Why am I too scared to approach him and tell him hi and hug him in public, why do I always run away from him afraid that he would reject me, or tell me... read more

  • Oct 1
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Mylifemychoice says

I wish if only I could show the world, that you are the guy who would put me first, and the rest of ladies are last, and that I feel safe in my life with you, especially if it's written for you to be my husband, I know that if any lady tries to flirt with you, or tries to steal you away from behind my back, you would always tell them that there is a big possibility for you to leave them behind, but you would prefer to be dead, rather than seeing me with another guy, because I... read more

  • Sep 29
  Mylifemychoice says

I saw Omar today, but he did not notice me, and I also saw the same guy who came to me in my vivid dream that is like a vision, as his cousin, the short guy, and he was talking to him, they did not notice that I was passing by, at first I thought that maybe it was someone who looks like Omar, but now I am positively sure it was him, the looks, the smile, and he was wearing the same color of my clothes, the light blue. I am so happy in a way I am not feeling hungry, but also b... read more

  • Sep 28
  Mylifemychoice says

Sometimes I feel thst my second soul, the opposite sex, the one guy who deserves the name Omar, has been seeing the same dreams that I have, even during my pregnancy in 2012, and my years after birth in 2013, and 2014. Strangely my story about him, are actually part of my vivid dreams about him, like he and others put them in words, in their own ways, with music or series or movies. How wonderful it is to find out that I am loved, even though I feel that I am never gonna be l... read more

  • Sep 28
Mylifemychoice says

I know that we might never get the chance to be together, but I like to think positive and tell myself that someday I will be all yours forever. The truth is, in the coming future you will be tested by God, just like I am being tested before you, and some of the tests, I feel like I passed them; I followed the signs and chose the hijab as my protection and the respect to my dignity, I even stopped loving alcohol, because it only makes me say rubbish things, but not what the t... read more

  • Sep 26
  Mylifemychoice says

If it wasn't for your sweet and kind prayers baby, I wouldn't have proven to myself that I am capable of preparing and cooking our favorite homemade food, am so happy because of you! If you were mine my lucky number 5, you would feel more than lucky, and you wouldn't have to always wish that your dreams about me come true then write them down as a song. I am the one who knows your deepest secrets, of all the ladies, God has chosen me to know your real personality and name, an... read more

  • Sep 20
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  Mylifemychoice says

You are right, better to leave an abuser, I left an abuser too because he hates that I like to laugh on everything, I don't understand guys, they tell me that it is fine to laugh and joke and make fun as a joke then suddenly when someone makes a joke on my phone with them guys, they take as a negativity, I can't handle the drama anymore, not with any guy! If you tell me to be myself and laugh and joke around, then don't change suddenly and be serious! It's no fair! Why make m... read more

  • Sep 15
  Mylifemychoice says

Sing to the world about how much you love your mama my baby and I don't care if you show them your gay side! I know that you have a deep voice, and you are the man! I maybe tell the world that I hate you, but I cannot hate my second soul, the fifth guy who is my favorite, you are the man I deserve to have and I might end up to be yours and you will fall into my arms when the people start getting bored of you and shoots you in the head, but please don't put the blame on me, do... read more

  • Sep 15
  Mylifemychoice says

Even if you tell the world that your mother and family are part of the people who hate us my baby number five, I know deep inside my soul and heart, that you are part of my family, my world, from since that wonderful vision in 2014, seeing a baby boy with your smile and your eyes, I knew then that you are the son of Beirut and your family are from Beirut, I love your eyes, your smile, your childish personality, I prefer to stay single until you grow in your 40's and you be mi... read more

  • Sep 15
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