So I just found out yesterday that I have yet another cyst on my vocal chords and that they wont operate this time until it gets to the point I can't breathe. I honestly just want to be done with all of this bull crap. I started taking my Bipolar meds again too and now I feel worse. But I know it'll only last a few days. The dark thoughts will subside and I'll make it through. I wont dream about killing myself anymore and I'll be able to pretend that I'm happy again.
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So, I love(d) this guy, R. He's was sweet and funny and we lived together and we were best friends. After 10 months of nothing but emotional games we decided to date, it was great. About one month and he started acting weird. Two months and he decided to break up with me. A week later he left without saying goodbye. I went home to an empty house, his keys were left on the table and that's how he let me know he was leaving. It's been two weeks since he left now... read more
Hey Anon, the one who asked how old I am. I act like a child? Okay, I'll give you that one. I'm only 20, how old are you anon? Old enough to tell me that I'm a child? Let me ask you something, how much do you really know about me? you know what I post, so what you don't know is that I'm 20, have 2 full time jobs as a waitress and a secretary, I also am a full time student who receives all A's in my studies (By the way I'm majoring in Business), I own a house, I own a car. Wha... read more
I think I'm tired. I think I'm tired of putting in all the effort I do. I think I'm tired of loving and losing. I think I'm tired of breathing. I think I'm tired of feeling numb. I think I'm tired of hurting myself. I think I'm tired of being tired. I think I'm tired of living. I think I'm done with all this.
Honestly just want to drop everyone right now. I can't keep putting my all into everything and receiving absolutely nothing back. He used to be my rock, he was my person, and now he's the cause of so much hurt that I can't breathe, I can't function without a heaviness. I used to think I was better and now I feel like I'm nothing. I'm not even a blip, I'm just a casualty. And he thinks he going to find happiness elsewhere? He wont. I'm going to be the one that got away and by ... read more
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