nise099 says

Castiel (Misha Collins) from Supernatural is hot. Him and Dean (Jensen Ackles) I personally don't think sam (Jared Padalecki) is any more than a bronze metal lol

  • Sep 17
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nise099 says

I'm waiting for him to walk back into my life. I know it'll happen sooner or later. I'm not sure how I'll handle it yet though.

  • Sep 16
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nise099 says

Tuesday I go to the Doctors who will tell me whether I can have kids or not.. I'm only 19 and don't have any yet. I'm so terrified they will say I can't have children.

  • Sep 16
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nise099 says

I hate that I think about you as much as I do

  • Sep 15
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nise099 says

A letter to Rocky Hubbard,
You broke me in a lot of ways, and into a lot of pieces. I guess it's my own fault, I knew you were broken from the start, I just didn't know how bad it was. I feel played and hurt, you did that. I would take every decision back, including meeting you. We had a thing, we were great, we had a spark and we could have been the couple people wish they could be. She was my friend, she was my coworker. I knew something was wrong and you not only lie... read more

  • Sep 13
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nise099 says

The past two weeks I've had nightmares about being raped, beaten and tortured.

  • Sep 13
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nise099 says

So much has happened to me the past few years that I associate my moving here with all negatives. I want to be happy, and every now and again I think I'll finally be happy. Then something happens and it goes downhill again. I try to set myself up for happiness, I have money in the bank, I work six days a week, I go out with my friends when I get the chance, I take trips places, I do what I want. When I turned 18 I moved out of my parents house, I've held one job for four year... read more

  • Sep 13
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nise099 says

Ugh... Anyone else watched "Death Note" or Read the manga? Or even watched the anime? I love it. I just bought the manga and it's really good if ya ask me

  • Sep 9
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nise099 says

First I'll say: Wow. I guess I haven't been on here in a while. I like the new layout! Now, on to why I even logged on. I have a cyst on my vocal chords. It's horrible to know that there is something in my body that I can't control. Something that I can't change without a surgery that will leave me voiceless for at least a week, that will change my voice entirely. I am scared that I'll have to live with it for the rest of my life. I've already had it removed twice. I can't ke... read more

  • Sep 9
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nise099 says

Guess I'm not worthy of your time, not even 5 minutes..

  • Aug 30
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nise099 says

I know you know you cut me pretty deep and I now know that you just don't care, which is fine I guess. I'm not really all that important anyway. I know you always said you could and would do better for yourself before we got together, and when we were together I noticed you being weird and I guess it's kind of my fault for not being more upfront and confronting you. I guess I just didn't expect you to do something like this. You use the excuse that you can't have nice things ... read more

  • Aug 26
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nise099 says

"And my b**** called talkin' 'bout some drama"
"She got a man but she says she really like me"
"She doin' things to excite me"

  • Aug 24
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nise099 says

Taylor swift songs and COD zombies? Hell yeah. Screw you and your judgy a**. You knew you meant everything and now I can't even hear your name without a lump forming. I hate you with such a passion. It's true that love and hate are so close. My friend, really? could you be any more of a cliche?! You could have had everything you wanted. I know you better than you know yourself, I could practically read you like a book and yet you decided that it was "too good" and had to f***... read more

  • Aug 19
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nise099 says

I hate that I started liking the music you listen to, I hate that you are the only thing I think of when I hear these songs, I hate that we used to listen to them driving around and laughing at each others terrible singing. I hate that you gave me these memories just to take away everything I ever wanted. You left to chase undesired dreams and I'm waiting for the day you realize just what you lost and how bad you messed up. I'm waiting for you to start asking me for things be... read more

  • Aug 18
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nise099 says

Well... I officially give up.

  • Aug 12
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nise099 says

I think I like my ex again... I'm not sure how to handle this honestly. We haven't talked in so long and now he shows up out of the blue and he's cuter and has bigger muscles and is more grown up and he's pleasant to talk to. He's broken like me and doesn't try to hide it. It was an instant reconnect with him and I forgot how nice it was to just talk to him. I forgot how it felt to be around him. Maybe I should give it another chance?

  • Aug 6
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nise099 says

I want to leave you but I'm scared that you're going to do something stupid to yourself. I don't want to be with you anymore but I don't want to hurt you and then you do something to hurt yourself. I don't want you to think that I'm leaving you for him because I'm not. I want you to be happy but you don't love me, you're in love with the idea of what I could be. Instead of bragging about me; you get jealous and overreact, instead of asking me to stay; you make it about you, i... read more

  • Aug 6
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nise099 says

I think that my depression might win this time.

  • Aug 3
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nise099 says

Just got a text from my ex, wow I guess next I'll see a pig fly and hell will freeze over.

  • Aug 1
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nise099 says

Ugh.. Talk about FOMO.

  • Jul 30
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