Puppycat34 says

So yea its official, real food (as in not junk food) makes me gag and im unable to eat a whole meal. This makes me worry tbh. Although its kind of what i want. For some weird reason, i want to lose weight. Im around 98 - 100 pounds, and i still want to lose weight... And i know if i get any skinnier ill be malnourished.. And i already have.. Uh.. Where people have problems making red blood cells, idk how to spell it.. So like.. Its good and bad at the same time.. Eh

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  Puppycat34 says

I haven't cried over him yet, which actually concerns me. I usually cry within the first few hours or within a day or two. I know if i suppress my emotions to much or too long, im gunna forget its there, and then when i finally get to a point, I'm gunna explode over something so tiny. Im just waiting for that day to come.. @-@

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  Puppycat34 says

So he ended up breaking it off with me because i got upset that i never really got to see him, and that his friends get to see him everyday, and his friends are like 99% girls and i know for a fact that some of them like him.. So i did what any other girlfriend would do, get upset and worried that he or she might do something but nooo he f***ing exploded on me and broke it off.. And i asked my friends what theu thought about it and everyone agreed that hes in the wrong on thi... read more

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  Puppycat34 says

I'm not exactly sure how to put this in words, so if this doesn't make very much sense, I'm sorry. But i really hate that i wanna hang out with him, but he wants to hang out with girls that he clearly knows that like him.. Like.. If u were seriously loyal, i feel like u would stay away from those people, to make sure nothing happens, like why would u want to hang around someone that u know would make your partner mad? I jist dont think it very fair that i dont get to see him,... read more

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Puppycat34 says

i feel bad for putting him through my bullcrap.. he doesnt deserve my outbursts.. all i am is a very toxic person.. but it also helps me realize that there are good people out there.. but he is a good person that doesnt deserve my bull crap.. im just bad karma..

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Puppycat34 says

its gotten to a point where i cant eat full meals. i only take two bites and i want to vomit.. its been like this for a couple weeks. i think its because my stomach just isn't used to real food, and only junk food. or, my anxiety is getting the best of me again. i figured it was the junk food thing, but it only takes about a couple days for me to get back on track, it usually doesn't last this long.. Any thoughts?

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Puppycat34 says

why hasnt he told them about me? is he hiding me? is he cheating? is he looking at other girls while hes hugging me? is he using me? my constant paranoia and anxiety make it extremely difficult for me to treat him like hes supposed to be treated. i have a very bad feeling, im scared hes going to break up with me, i know he is.. he found someone better... hes been saying it with his body language.. the way he looks at me and treats others. i cant take it.. its upsetting me and... read more

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Puppycat34 says

it bothers me when i get these random.. energy bursts. like, i dont get hyper or happy, its like a sudden rush of feelings. today it was a bad feeling, and its very rare when i get these, i only get it when something thats gunna hurt emotionally is about to happen. it either happens today, tomorrow, or a week later. if nothing bad happens after about a week, i just decide it was a false feeling, and that i was just over thinking. im just really scared and dont know what to do... read more

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