I absolutely loath myself at this stage in my life! I can't commit to study fulfillments and most of all my mother-the only person who gives a sh**-is about to turn their back on me.
I love her, and hate myself for not being motivated enough to do what I need to do to get on in life!
I feel soo g**d*** alone as I live away from family! Nothing at this stage is certain, I.e rent, food or teachers still willing to give a crap to teach me!
I just want to finish this course and build a new life free from disappointment on my behalf!