If you are listening to what people on here are saying to you, then you will understand: stop caring about what your @$$#ole father thinks or says. Is he a substance user? He sure sounds like it. At any rate, he's jealous of you because you're more of a REAL and decent person than he is. Ignore him and do what you've gotta do. Don't let him see you be upset, or HE WINS, because he obviously gets off on trying to get you to cry. Move on with your life and cut him out of it!