I want to cry I'm really nervous about going to the doctors in a few days for a diagnosis. I'm hoping what I believe it is, isn't it since that thing could kill me in the long run or shorten my life. It'd change my life and I'm just not ready for that when I'm just trying to be a straight A college student. I'm not ready for the procedure to confirm what I have...I was always the healthiest and right now it's all just falling apart.