I'm mentally ill. Some of it is because of how my brain developed. Some of it is because people have hurt me. Some of it is because people are hurting me. Some of it is because the fact I'm mentally ill makes it so I can't f***ing do anything for myself. I was abused so now I can't kiss anyone without wanting to kill myself, even though I want to fall in love. I was told for my entire life that I was lazy, even when I was trying my best. My mental state is degrading even more every day and I'm becoming someone I don't want to become.

I'm so tired.