My grandpa that raised me, he lives 500 miles away now and his doctor has estimated that he has 6 months to live. I don't know his counts or his stage, I know it's close to his pancreas( probably spread there if I had to guess). Idk, I don't even feel anything. I know I should feel sad, but I don't. Is that okay, I feel like I owe him grievance but I can't. Idk