God I'm so overwhelmingly lonely. Like, I shouldn't feel so sh**y because I have so many people who love me but. Just. Sometimes I feel lonelier around other people, you know? Because I know that some day they can't be there for me. And right now I know they want to be there for me. But I know something will happen. And in general I always get so mad at myself for the stupidest things, and I don't know if I'm just overreacting or being hormonal or what. I can't be alone for ... read more
i've tried to talk to my closest friend about my depression but her response is always so infuriating.
she tries to shut anything negative out of her life and simply denies anything that isn't positive and happy. when i got quiet and zoned out because depression she told me to "stop thinking!" then assumed i was fine and treat me normally as if i didn't want to murder everyone that made any movements or noises within a four mile radius whilst simultaneously curling up into a... read more
im on a diet because i hate how i look right now. im a girl with a f***ing inverted triangle body type. i get that its not my fault and its genetics but damn i look like a f***ing football player with these broad a** shoulders. Anyway if im on a restricted calorie diet and adding a few squats to get my legs and a** bigger , wont i lose my shoulders and stomach first since its the biggest part. everywhere i read says the place where you have the most fast goes away first?
i dont have and eating disorder, but sometimes i hate my body so much i just want to tear it apart. i hate my body so much but unlike the beautiful anas i have no self control and always end up feeding myself too much. I hate my body but tell myself curves are pretty, but the only curves i have are on my stomach. i hate my body and i wish i had enough self control to not eat at all. i'd rather die than be what i am