Idk what's happening to me. I feel like I've lost myself, but sometimes I also do have myself and can be myself. It's like, at times, I have to remember and force my mind to think of what 'me' or 'I' would do in this situation. It's spring break right now, and is it possible it's just because I've been home alone the whole spring break and I'm not surrounded by people? Sometimes I forget who I am, and sometimes I know who I am. When I wake up, I have the feeling of my heart dropping because I immediately remember my problems (not knowing myself), but when I snap back to reality, I try to make up an excuse like it's just spring break. And sometimes, I'm not happy with who I am, but sometimes I also am. What do I do? What is this?
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