Life

I feel so f***ing alone. I have to admit that I really didn't see my life going in this direction. I made horrible decisions.
I got married and with that man who I truly was head over heals in love with... left as soon as he found out our child was terminally ill. DIVORCE IS WHAT he wanted. A year later and still nothing. I am in limbo. I don't get a divorce for the medical benefits that my child receives. But it has me in a place where I can't do for myself. I can't get a job because I am a full time caregiver to my child. Why does it have to be so hard? Even within the medical community I am the odd ball. I am stress. I am so tired of being alone in this.