...i'm too young to feel like this. there's too many emotions going on in my head. i want to cry. but i can't, no matter how hard i try. i just get this sickening feeling in my stomach that makes me want to cut even more. i ate too much today too. i'm trying my hardest not to cut. but i just feel so fat and guilty. i'm disgusting. i'm ugly. i'm only a burden to my friends. they all pretend to be friends with me, out of pity. i've lost the only one i could talk to. i don't know where she is. but she's gone. i can't speak to her ever again. i miss her so much. but i know if i message her she'll ignore it or tell me that it's not worth trying or the conversation will be awkward. i just need someone. anyone. please