I feel kind of at peace now. I'm going to ask the people that live with me if they think I can keep improving with my physical and mental health. If they say no, I'm going to go through with committing suicide, so I can stop being a burden on them and society. I don't want pity or people telling me not to do this. I've been struggling for years and it's been negatively affecting people around me. I think it is the right thing to do.