Finally a place I can write down how I feel. I just don't know what is going on with me. It's like, every day is getting harder and harder. I don't understand why I'm like this. I have no reason to be. Maybe it's my insecurities? Maybe it's my over thinking? I guess it could be anything really.. I just can't figure it out. I'm never happy. I cry every night, not knowing why. I sit on the edge of my bed, and just stare at my wall, trying to figure this out. I'm driving myself crazy. Why am I like this? Why do I always assume the worst? Why do I always put myself down? What is wrong with me? Why do I imagine myself being left alone all the time? I am alone. I've always been alone. I've had friends, but never felt any of them cared about me. I've had relationships, but never felt I was good enough for them. Why am I like this? I wish I knew. I wish I knew why I look at myself in the mirror and never like what I see. I wish I knew why I'm always so scared to do things. I wish I knew why I hated myself. Someone please, tell me why I'm like this. Who am I kidding. If I don't know, how should anyone else.