I am absolutely disgusted of my actions of disrespect towards people, everything I do I eventually mess up, and jeopardize my relationship with people. Something happened today and it wasn't the worst but that's why I'm here typing this, it's not the worst thing that couldn't happen but I hate myself for it and honestly want my life to be over. Why do we have to be suck dumbasses sometimes? Every freaking thing I do I am an absolute dumbass