I'm a 15 year old girl in high school. I'm in love with my best friend. He is 17. He used to like me, but I had a boyfriend at the time. We have lunch, one study hall and one other class together. His name is Peyton. He is always there for me, no matter what. He even helped me with my boyfriend problems when he liked me. I don't know if he likes me anymore. I don't know how to tell him. Or if I should tell him. I just have so many problems, I feel like he might've changed his mind about liking me. My birth mother abused me, I have emotional break downs frequently because of it. I feel alone and unwanted even when I'm around people or when I'm told I'm loved and wanted. I struggle with depression. I've had suicidal thoughts before, I think I'm getting better. I see a counselor now. My nosy sister read my journal where I wrote about my depression and how I planned on killing myself. Peyton has listened to all my problems. He calls me bestie and his best friend. He used to compliment me a lot and I asked him to stop because I had a boyfriend at the time. Even now that I'm single, he hasn't called me pretty or anything like that. Maybe he's over me by now, I don't know what to think or do. All I know is I'm in love with Peyton Lee Griffith.