People are probably going to look at my picture and think I'm being ridiculous but I have f***ing acne, a cleft chin that popped out of nowhere, stretch marks, varicose veins, spots and scars all over my legs that feel sore every time I shave them and f***ing burn when I put certain creams or lotions on them, difficult and annoying facial hair that I have to pluck and remove constantly (no 20 year female should be getting course hairs on their damn chin!), cellulite and a muf... read more
I actually need to utilise my gym membership since the small amount of money I get each month could be cut off and taken away from me at any time. I'm an underdog and a puppet to the people who have more authority over me. Benefits or a minimum wage job are my only two options unless I find a way to grab the bull by the horns and break out of this system so I'm not dependent on the government or an employer.
Does anybody know how to fully cover up ugly carpeting in rented accommodation so it can be removed later on if and when I move out? I'm moving into a flat with yellow painted walls and dark blue carpets and it's really hard to find anything to compliment such a colour scheme. I would rather have grey carpeting with a nice rug and a black and white theme in terms of the furnishing, much more modern and stylish, much more... ME.
I pushed some people away so much to the point where their mind has practically been conditioned to see me in a negative light. Even if I explained my reasons and cleared the air about one thing, they'd still feel bitter towards me for something else or probably wouldn't even give me the time of day.
Is there are any way to show somebody who holds a negative opinion against you, doesn't want to talk to you or give you an opportunity and feels resentful towards you that you're capable of changing and prove their past judgments about you wrong?
It seems the older you get, the less people care about you and the lonelier you become, leaving behind old connections to climb higher up the social ladder and be around more fun and less awkward people since right now I would probably be a bad influence on most of the people who do want me and my idea of fun is different to theirs.
So-called friends have forgotten who I am when I call them, family members are distant and only reach out digitally when they have t... read more
It seems the older you get, the less people care about you. So-called friends have forgotten who I am when I call them, family members don't even give me cards or presents for my birthday anymore, people I used to talk to block me on everything, ghost me and don't give me the time of day then I'm expected to be resilient, in one piece and perfectly fine? To be honest, I feel brushed to one side and insignificant.
I said it awhile ago and I'll say it again. Not everybody who leaves you is necessarily a loss. Sometimes it takes a while to realize that some people have actually done you a huge favor by walking out of your life. People had their reasons, I get that and I know what needs to change about me at the end of the day and now I can start to make those improvements with less weight on my shoulders.
Not everybody who leaves you is necessarily a loss. Sometimes it takes a while to realize that some people have actually done you a huge favor by walking out of your life. People had their reasons, I get that and I know what needs to change about me at the end of the day and now I can start to make those improvements with less weight on my shoulders.
I used to feel really hurt and disrespected whenever a person ghosted me or left my life but perhaps their departure is actually a blessing in disguise. When you agree to making plans with someone but all of sudden get irked by something small they said without the intention of them actually offending you and ignore them for a week without explaining to them why you're upset with them, trying to understand them better or even having the courtesy to cancel plans, disappearing ... read more
Sometimes I wish I had the option to live in an isolated cabin out in the wilderness, really well furnished, with Wi-Fi and all the other sh** I need. There are times where I just find a lot of people obnoxious and want to be alone to be honest.
The hot stuffy air, humans, humans everywhere with little to nowhere to park my derriere, the coughs, sneezes, nose blowing and wheezes I've only made it to the first stop, it's 6pm and Friday, please pray for me.
That feeling when somebody who cut you off only ever got back in touch a couple of times in the past so they could pretty much use you and drop you again. I still have to change. Trying to let it go and forgive but still upset.
Maybe holding on to resentment just isn't worth it anymore. What am I proving to others or to myself through feeling hurt and angry at people who no longer want to be a part of my life other than reinforcing the negative judgments that they hold against me?
I don't see how reinforcing somebody's resentment towards you by lying to them about wanting them in your life when you don't or judging them when they make a mistake such as self harming and experience a rough patch in their life, labeling their actions as emotional blackmail helps to resolve the issues that they have you with you or the way they behave towards you.
I already felt resentment towards the judgements that you made about me, being cut off and passed down to your friend who ignored me for a week without an explanation and didn't even bother to cancel plans that were made which to me was beyond disrespectful towards me and my time - and that's why I signed you both up for online surveys and junk emails! I felt hung out to dry and wanted to get my own back!
For you to pretty much lead me on and lie to me to 'test' ... read more