Broke up with my boyfriend 2 months ago.... About a week ago I told him I was bi, and I just finished telling him I was glad a mutual friend didn't mind, because if she started avoiding me, it would break my heart. I've always been close to him, even though he's my ex now...I just feel like I can tell him anything and he won't judge me. I thought this was evidenced again by the fact he isn't upset I didn't come out as bi to him while we were together, but say one word about h... read more
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I have to tell someone this. Yesterday I had a massive relapse on my self-harm. I don't cut deep enough to bleed because it's summer and I need it to fade quickly and not leave a scar my mom can be suspicious about, but I've been cut-free for a few months. Yesterday I broke the pop top off of a soda can and made an indeterminate amount of cuts. Some were on my arm, some were on my leg, and most were on my stomach. At least 400 cuts were on my stomach, and no, that isn't exagg... read more
I think religion is ruining my friend's life. She has changed so much, and I don't think it's for the better. She decided she's never going to date because whoever God designed for her is her fiance, so dating would be cheating on him. She decided the bible's opinions are her opinions. She isn't individual anymore. I'm really worried about her. Faith is a good thing, but can there be too much of it??
Okay, here goes. I've been having nightmares about you. Sometimes you tell me to kill myself (and I do). But those aren't the worst. I thought they were for a long time. But nope. My new recurring nightmare is that you rape me. There, I said it. So do you get why I can't be around you now? Every time I see you I remember my nightmares and it isn't your fault but I can't deal with it. I'm scared of you now. I'm scared of seeing the look in your eyes change from caring to cruel... read more
To my friend:
So...life sucks. You know what? Deal with it. Yeah, it's hard. But everything gets better for a time before it sucks again. And hey...maybe you'll die on a high note instead of killing yourself and dying when you are at your lowest. I think you are awesome and I don't want to lose you. YOU ROCK! I've called the Lifeline on you before because I want you to make it through whatever you're going through. I didn't know where you were so I didn't get them to send pe... read more
I broke up with you. We both know that. You were my best friend. You told me we could go back to that. So I tried. I talked to you. I treated you like I did before we ever started dating. You're the one who started the "I love you"s. And then it seemed like we were together again, and I was happy about it. I never wanted to break up with you. It was my mother. Because you are 8 years older than me, and I'm a minor. I had to do it, and it broke my heart to say the wo... read more
You know what? f*** you, world! Just deal with the fact that I exist and there isn't a damn thing you can do about it. You know, most of the time, I cry myself to sleep because you are cruel. You want me dead. It's only natural. I don't want to be here if you don't want me here, but my sisters want me here so I will stay. I don't give a sh** what you think anymore. I used to think the pain of a cut showed me I was alive. Recovering is what shows I'm alive, damn it. So f*** of... read more
- This is the end.