tiburmon says

I had my braces removed a few days ago, and I still can't stop smiling... :)))

  • Apr 18
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tiburmon says

I feel like I've lost my integrity. I used to be that honest-to-goodness girl, who was always there for her friends. Now, I'm just not that kid anymore. I've trusted and been failed, and I've been trusted and failed many people as well. I can't trust myself anymore. I feel like I don't deserve the good people. Even though I've already said sorry, and the people I've wronged probably don't really hold grudges against me... I can't seem to forgive myself.

  • Apr 16
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tiburmon says

So now, now is one of the few times I'm feeling strong. I haven't felt alright in a long time. My past few muttrs have been about my depression. But now, through the help of some of my friends, family, and some friendly acquaintances, I've felt empowered. I'm starting to realize that I've been going through so much change in my past two years that I've forgotten to slow down and think about my life. It's just that, I've learned more about myself. Truly, I have had so many sho... read more

  • Apr 14
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  tiburmon says

I really wish someone just put a gun to my head already and shot me outright because I can't understand myself and no matter how hard I try to change, I'm always never enough. The people who used to be for me and with me have all forgotten me, and I fking hate myself.

  • Apr 10
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  tiburmon says

Sometimes I just hate myself so much. I remember all the wrong that I did. I have so much trouble forgiving myself. I know it sounds rather arrogant but I can't believe I failed the people who only wanted the best for me, and I also failed myself. Sometimes I wish someone just put a gun to my head and shot me outright, because then I wouldn't have to deal with all this internal strife within myself.

  • Apr 10
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tiburmon says

Sometimes I get so anxious that my thoughts just get so... strange and downright pitiful. There's just this situation that causes me so much mental anguish, that I just imagine how it'd be if I had just killed myself. I think about things like, "I would greatly appreciate it if someone just put a gun to my head and shot me." or "I wonder if people who said they were my friends would actually even attend my funeral." I know, these are irrational thoughts and are terribly unhel... read more

  • Apr 3
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tiburmon says

What I hate so much is that I'm just anxious or depressed, or both at the same time. I don't understand myself. I feel like my mom and dad can't help me. My relatives can't help me either. They also don't understand. I've went to a psychologist, and I've somehow gotten better at regulating my emotions, but sometimes I still get these extreme mood swings where I cannot even function at all. I have friends, but they're not close enough to me for me to disclose my personal issue... read more

  • Apr 3
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tiburmon says

I'm really sad that I'm not besties with my bestie anymore. We were bestfriends for three years. When I was in my old school, his presence in my life gave me the strength to keep going, in a place where a lot of people looked down on me and just plain disliked me. I found comfort in him, that there was someone who believed in me, even when I could not believe in myself. I can't believe he just so easily let me go, just like that. I keep trying to hit him up but our connection... read more

  • Apr 3
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tiburmon says

I'm having so much trouble with myself. I'm always struggling with "not being enough". I hate myself for being so socially inept, that I could've formed many strong bonds if it weren't for my utter social ineptitude. I hate myself for not being a very good person. I lie, I'm not always good to people, and I have failed people who trusted me. I'm trying to change. I know that the wrong things I did back then are inexcusable and wrong but I can't help but regret them so much an... read more

  • Apr 3
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tiburmon says

I said I'd be okay. That even if I'm no longer best friends with my best friend before, I won't cry about it because I'm different now. But sometimes I get triggered by the most mundane of things, and it feels so irrational. My friend just mentioned to me his 14 hr call with his best friends, and I remember how I used to have someone like that in my life. Now I don't. What's worse, my ex best friend doesn't give a flying f*** about me. As if I was worth nothing. It demotivate... read more

  • Mar 16
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tiburmon says

I feel terribly sad and lonely. I hate having this crippling feeling that I have no one for me... add this to the guilt I feel, because I feel I have no right to feel this way as I still have my family with me. But aside from my mother and father, I feel like there's no one else for me but myself. I have friends at school, people I talk to everyday. But somehow, I feel I cannot fully trust them. They're all busy with their lives and the people they love. How come everyone see... read more

  • Mar 15
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tiburmon says

I really hate it when my 'friends' just approach me when they need something, be it emotional support or money. When I need their help, they always say they're too busy. They deny me all the damn time. I hate those kinds of people.

  • 2 Nov 2016
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tiburmon says

I feel so lonely. I recently moved to a new city, far from my friends and family... and I'm socially awkward. When I talk, I get talked over. When I try to make friends, people seem disinterested in me. Although I've had three best friends in my hometown, now, they also live far, and I find it so difficult to adjust and make new friends. I feel that people... just don't care about me. I think they think I make no sense, or that I'm stupid, or that I'm simply just not the kind... read more

  • 10 Oct 2016
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