Who cares right?

And now i don't know what to think.

I've wanted to almost die again.
I like the feeling, anxiety, crushed soul sadness, its addictive.
I. V. S hooked up to my hands so i can't rip them out. Better than most drugs. Plus the lonliness. No one visits. I get to walk alone in my ward.
I'm easily replaced loads of people have done it.
And its not like i care either.
I feel completley empty and the encironment matches.

Maybe i want to fall over the edge just one more time