Your Safe Space to Just Vent

Do not read.🤮 Just took the longest poop ever. Not really. I have had longer. Maybe even over a foot.

guys im sorry ill do better

hope they don't slow cook me into a rotisserie at work tomorrow but seriously i'm really scared that the managers are going to go off again (probably at me, its always me.)

1.5 hr left till i can go home

In my entire life, I had never failed an exam, but once I started college, I began to fail several subjects. I was so disappointed in myself. After failing my yearly exam, I retook it in order to continue on to second year. After that, I was trying my best just to pass all subjects. I had a huge game addiction but got myself away from it, and I did significantly better than the previous one, but I still failed two subjects out of seven for only 2-3 marks, but this time I was much happier because I saw my progress. Unlike my parents, they were still disappointed in me and said harsh things. My confidence is shattered when I realize that, like my parents, people do not see hard work unless it results in success.

Serious questions to liberal voters, you all have guns as well as conservatives?Am I right? You made use of AR and AK rifles at anti ICE protests. Am I right? You did so because of government overreach. Am I right? (And I want to add that was impressive. You’re braver than most of the “from my cold dead hands” crowd) If you answer yes to all of these questions, I have to also ask, how will you defend this right under those who want to do away with it or restrict it to such a degree that it’s pointless to try?

if you're a black actress you will have to shave your head to get roles. no one will hire you if you're normal. only the biracial girls get to be normal.

I need to talk about something, people I used to work with at King Soopers, complained about my hygiene, but their approach was backwards. My manager/ supervisors weren’t being professional. Ron was raising his voice, pretty much bullying me, because A: he yelled at me and said i smell, B: He didn’t say it in a professional manner, saying something like “you smell” is something a bully would say, I don’t trust it, C: I didn’t trust him because he looked down and he said “i am just trying to help, I don’t know”. He was looking down and shaking his head. Okay , that’s strange. he called me in the office area, one time, and was just yelling at me, and I would like to add he was being hostile the entire time too, He treated me very poorly. My reaction was to grey rocked him, so I did, I just said “I don’t know what you’re talking about”. He didn’t even know I was grey rocking and for some reason he talked me like i was stupid, he said “you smell”, but then i said “I know what it means, i am not stupid” then he said “no i am not saying that”. He backed down, but he needs to speak up, I can’t hear. He then said “I don’t like your attitude”. So, which one is it? He was bad at communicating, he was supposed to speak to me in a professional manner, not insult me, he wasn’t supposed to put me down, so then he got mad. He got mad when I told him “I don’t need your help”. Unfortunately , people online didn’t help, just asked if i was around food, I don’t know their responses didn’t seem helpful, made me feel even more upset, they basically just agreed blindly. Which is concerning, I was already feeling like everyone was against me. I think everyone just wanted me to conform. I don’t bring outside problems to work. My managers/ supervisors didn’t give me constructive feedback, they didn’t tell me how I can improve, they were trash talking the entire time, I presume it had to do with trying to fire me. I don’t know. Basically, till this day, I still don’t trust what people said and I don’t know what happened. However, I'm not going to change if you treat me like crap though, they were dehumanizing me. People online were on their side, they said if you don’t fix the problem it will never get better. They didn’t know the situation. There wasn’t a problem either. It was made up to get me fired. Sadly, they didn’t believe me, I guess multiple people were trying to make me suicidal. It’s disgusting.

If P*do Pete Hegseth's lateral move to a senate seat makes you angry, then that's what's going to happen. A plan in Tennessee is being hatched at this moment about this bastard escaping justice and answering for murdering people suspected of being drug runners and killing a school full of Iranian children.

its relatively quiet at the office today yayyyyy

Hercules star Kevin Sorbo fumes America 'has become communist' after midterms “Z list star from the 90s attempts to remain relevant.” Another useless twat where only the GOP will tolerate you.

I couldn't figure out why I was sleeping so much and wondered if I was depressed or something. Ha! Diet pills. This particular one makes you fatigue. Nothing serious.

Sometimes I wish I'm forced to medically transition to a guy to go to war or something. Then when I'm back to my family, they won't pester me for a partner or marriage, cuz to them, I'm already a lost cause if I transition to a guy, and so they'll say "oh well! That's very sad we can't get you married :("

I don’t agree with others, I don’t listen to people either, that also includes when people tell me things to my face and behind my back. They never say the truth about me, other people believe what other people say about me, I hate it, but I get it, that’s how people are, it happens, I don’t agree with it, I also don’t agree that I am blaming others, people tried to accuse me of it. I told myself that’s just what they see, I went on to tell myself , it’s their perspective, it’s their point of view, it’s their perception, you know, yada, yada yada, but it’s also not the truth. I just wanted to vent about this because I am sick of people acting like what they say, their perception, and etc is the truth when it isn’t, they say it like it’s a fact, it’s not ok. I don’t get close to people, I don’t let people in, so therefore they are incorrect. I don’t know why they say this stuff but I know it’s not about me at all. It’s also a good time to mention the word projection, this is exactly what they are doing; projecting. You can’t define me, you define yourself, you define yourself by: how you treat me, by what you say, and how you say it. I am ranting but I am glad I am. The whole point of my rant is to help ground myself and heal. I feel better. Don’t get me wrong, I know what I said before, I said “ I don’t listen to others”, well I meant to say I listen to others, when it suits me. I even tried to give them a chance few times, but unfortunately, they were too toxic, instead of constructive feedback/criticism, they spewed hate left and right, they just tear me down to bring themselves up. I don’t need that crap in my life. I did what anyone would do, I cut ties. When I say I cut ties, I really meant it. Ok, now, I just let in nothing but positivity, oh well, I let in as much positivity as I can, I am doing the best I can, of course, nothing is perfect, they say healing is non-linear. But anyways, I’ll give one example of toxic behavior: I cut ties with this person named Hannah, we never met but I watched her videos, said “we are all connected”. I disagree with that because people treat me like crap. It happens a lot, I don’t think I do, I think I reacted to what happened to me, I am rambling on, I can’t be connected to people, it’s not possible, there’s only me, myself and I. That’s it. Nothing more. I am going to live with myself and die alone with myself. It doesn’t affect others. Also, nobody cares.

This lady was horrible to me at the library in a small town where I live, it happened a while ago, i had a flashback about it, today. I want to talk about it in length. Here it goes: I wanted to check out a book, but this lady wouldn’t leave me be, she just acted like she was deliberately trying to upset or provoke me. For example, she approached me and started giving me a hard time about the way I scanned the book. However, I never asked for help, she just chewed me out, it happened out of nowhere, it made me sad, which she would enjoy hearing, but she isn’t here, this also takes me back to when a shaman laughed at idea of me being sad. But the truth was she guessing how I felt. I never stated I was sad. It showed me she never cared about me. Her interest was power and control. People are cruel and enjoy hurting me or making me sad a lot actually, I don’t know why, but it seems like they really get a kick out of it. I know I don’t know her intentions but I am talking about my perspective here, I saw this with my own eyes, this lady was cruel to me at the library, this shaman was cruel to me in the past, it seemed like it was done on purpose, when it happened by both people. I understand the world is a cruel fucked up place, it really shows but this was in the realm of harassment, you say that’s the way the world works, you say that’s life, but I will try to murder you because I don’t care about you, I only care about me, I am not telling anyone my sob story, I am venting, so you get over it. This vent is for me, I need to release the trauma I experienced. Long story short, I returned the book and filed a complaint, I can only speculate the reasons behind this persons behavior but I don’t know, I thought it was about the way I dressed, if it was, I don’t understand why I was harassed, I dress for me, not anyone else. It’s weird to go after someone if they dress a certain way because of sensory issues and or sensory needs, but she did, I have adhd, I buy clothes that I like and this lady was attacking me and harrassing me for clothes i like, it’s weird, it’s power and control again, I didn’t think to call the police, but it felt like it got that bad, I think filing a complaint was enough, these people were gone after some time and they hired new people. Still, people are rude at this library and I stopped going. I was never the cause obviously, in the end I still feel sad for myself and I felt bad because this lady was attacking me.

Fuck Trump again and again.

what does it mean if i want to tell someone about every terrible thing that's happened to me? why do i want to do that? why am i so fucking desperate for another person to hear what they did to me? god, nobody in the entire world knows what the fuck happened in this house. it was like a horror movie. and everything is all "normal" now but it can't ever really be normal again because every morning i walk past the spot where my dad shoved me to the ground, and i live inside the same four walls i lost my mind in back then. i still have the laptop my mom punched me over.

remembering that time my dad shoved me to the ground because my mom convinced herself she was scared of me. when she lied to make me look dangerous. i was never fucking dangerous or violent like she said. she was LYING. why did everyone believe her? why did she do that in the first place?

My wife beats me and treats me as a manservant. Mother-in-law is misandrist.😭

ouuhhh the pit in my stomach when i remember what they said to me... kill me NOW