@SaeLien

I got an exam tomorrow and Im dead Like Idk why I can't focus on anything I feel like am wasting time even writing this but whtever this site is really cool wish I knew of it before :( I don't know if I can commit even today , I went on some other sites and the people there tell me that I am always saying how I wanna commit but never actually succeeded so they said I was suicide-baiting and im kinda. .. feeling guilty bc maybe I am suicide baiting u know? like how can a person be that bad? liek if i cant do anything at least I shoudl be brave enough to commit but am a coward as always and thsi is the reason I don't wanna tell people I am gonna commit cz what if I back out at the moment and they think its just an act? am ranting lol ik just really confused and yeah Ig seeing others post, I think evryone has a phrase where they are just.. confused and lost but I am just really really sure that if I commit its gonna be alright and i know it wil be but I cant cz people make suicide .. seem so bad My dad tell me that its okay to do it, he understands, he knows I won't survive long but my mom.. she is just always so.. blinded by love? or idk just never agreeing my frnds are also supporting this cz they know that I wont survive in long run its only matter of time if not now then later for sure i will do it i just know... btw am 15,,, yeah Ik everyone goes thro this phrase at this age But im just ... not .. like I dont even want life to get better I dont want anything I just wanna go liek I feel like an audience every time its like ... idk whtver am sry for the typos , if i hv any here i gtg study now I suck like if anyone on here knew me irl, you'd all say the same I know I just wish people would be open to someone suiciding or smthg .

hate myself so freaking much, wanna kms rn, too tired..... i ain't got no future